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I have to address you because I cannot let you think what you did was OK. I really do not appreciate you calling my best friend just because you know she would tell me everything you said. Its not like y'all are friends and its not like you call her EVER. Thats so very high school and I thought we were beyond that.

I thank God that you did not call me because what I have to say to you is not very Christ like and I'm trying to get my life together. I would appreciate if you didn't act like you care about me because you don't. It's taking a lot of restraint not to say some things that would bring out the worst of me.

That last entry I wrote with you in it was not about you, it was about me. But if you want some of this you can get some. I didn't write half of what I thought about you and I'm trying to keep the bitterness to a minimum here.

I guess its better you called Tiffani instead of me because it only made me glad I no longer have to deal with you. It validated the reason why I didn't trust you. I did see the potential in you and you let me down. I have no sympathy for you. Whatever you are going through is for a reason. Deal.

I don't want you to call me . I don't really want you to call Tiffani if I have to hear about it, but I can't control that. I hope I can get to the point where I can be civil to you, but I'm not there yet because you continue to do stuff to piss me off. I will pray for you and me because I see no hope for you now, but I hope you do.

Yes I'm still alive

Oh how I've missed posting. I'm so far from the internet these days.

I am working but I'm not telling you where. I don't need any more stalkers. Plus if you're in Hampton, its not that hard to find out where I'm am since everyone knows everyone else's business anyway.

I really love working though. At first it was because it was a place to go and something to do but my co-workers are so much fun.

I finally got on the bus and its not that bad. They keep em really cold so that's good on these blazing hot summer days. I don't have to take it all the time, I'm usually picked up by someone, so I cheat.

The worst part is the before and after. The waiting. I HATE waiting. So I try to leave the house as late as possible without getting left. People honk and stop and ask if you want a ride......NO!

Well I did take a ride once but it was because I had no other alternative. Dude ended up wanted to be my sugar daddy.

I wanna take you out to eat. I'll pay your car insurance if you get a car. You don't have to struggle anymore.

Uh huh and what do I have to do?

I prayed he wasn't a serial killer and got in the car. He didn't start talkin all this I'll take care of you business until I got to work.

Now to be honest its not the job I would've picked for a number of reasons, but it is a blessing to me. It enables me to pay my bills, there's somewhere to meet new people and something interesting happens all the time.

I'm around

I'm oh so sorry, I know you all miss me. I've been runnin around doin a few things here and there but there are a couple stories I've been wanting to get out but nothing to report right now. I've been MIA for the last couple weeks but having a good time doing it. I'll holla soon.